phoneless - again

Today, i woke up with a surprise awaiting me..... nawawala ang cellphone ko! I left it by the table at my bedside to charge.... at paggising ko nung umaga ay wala na sya. Andun pa yung charger, so nahiya ata ung nagnakaw, pero ung fone ko wala na. Ang saya tlga ng buhay.

I was sleeping in the IVHome guest room last night. And I don't lock doors pero i close them naman. The IVHome guest room is on the first floor by the stairs. Sabi ni Ate Rachel kung nagkataon daw na nag-lock ako ng door, baka umakyat pa yung magnanakaw sa taas. Owel. At least sabi ni Leng hindi daw ako napag-tripan nung magnanakaw.

Grrrrrr....... naiinis ako dun sa magnanakaw. Nangengelam sya ng di nya naman gamit. Naiinis ako! But i guess he needed it more than i did if he was driven to such desperate measures. Kanya na yon! Bahala sya. Papalitan na lng yun ni Lord. Haaaay.... Kelan, Lord? kelan po? Salamat na lng in advance.... :)

Ako yata ay lapitin ng mga cellphone magnanakaw. Pero hindi ako nananakawan sa labas ng bahay. At di ko rin naiiwan ang phone ko sa mga taxi. Three times na ako nanakawan ng phone sa loob ng bahay! waaaaah....... At laging sa room pa! pambihira. Kung naiiwan ko ung phone ko sa taas ng refrigerator walang nagkaka-interest. Pero pag nasa loob pa talaga ng room ko andaming interesado. Mejo lang ha! Ang effort! Haaay nako.

a conversation

I reconnected with a dear friend sa YM. we got to talking. And inevitably, our conversation arrived at these questions which, i think, get to be asked more often as we advance in years. And she was the third person to ask me the same question in one hour. Hay nako. Ewan.

hahaha... share ko lng.

mine kulit: hahaha
mine kulit: ayaw mo pa magpakasal?
mine kulit: hehehe
mariel: puwedeng ibang tanong? hehehe
mariel: ikaw?
mariel: hahahahaha
mariel: hmmmm. wala pa sa isip ko yan. hehehe
mine kulit: hahahahaha
mine kulit: gusto ko magpakasal pag mga 29 na ko
mine kulit: hahaha
mariel: hahaha. kaw?
mine kulit: wala pa ko boyfriend
mariel: ilang taon ka na ba tint?
mine kulit: wala rin akong kilala pa na potential boyps
mine kulit: bahala si lord
mine kulit: hehe
mine kulit: 25
mariel: ok lang yun.
mariel: uhum siya bahala.
mariel: exciting ano..hehe
mine kulit: haha, some days its exciting, some days it's just frustrating wondering
mine kulit: hahaha
mariel: nasan na kaya siya?
mariel: darating pa ba siya?
mariel: hahahaha
mariel: haaayyy
mine kulit: hahahahah
mariel: hehehehehe
mariel: mga tanong na ewan
mariel: hahahaha
mariel: ok lang namang magtanong db?
mariel: hehehe

hahaha. ok lng naman magtanong diba?
haaay... i miss conversations like this. i miss sv. miss kita mariel! *hug* it was a blessing to talk with you again. love you!

on the other side part1

i feel like bursting right now.... actually, i've already cried thrice in the past hour. i can't help it. i just can't. tears just seem to jump from my eyes at the littlest things..... i've just gone through what it is like to be the 'folks' (that's what we call everyone around the patient. hehe). and it's not nice. it's not pretty. buti sana kung alam ko na makakauwi ng maayos at malakas ang pasyente ko at the end of, say, 3 days. sana kung acute gastroenteritis o kaya acute tonsillopharyngitis lang ang sakit nya... kahit sabihin pa nating dengue.... mejo ok pa e.... pero when you know its the big C, mahirap. it's hard not to feel sad, not to feel helpless, to question why. why them? why now? why not someone else i don't know? why not someone who's less good? waaaaaaaaaaaaah.......

i know, i know. i've read Lewis's The Problem of Pain as well as Yancey's Where is God When It Hurts and i have heard all anyone can say regarding God's plans and his goodness and sovereignty and all but it doesn't stop me from breaking down and crying or feeling sad when i learn that someone i know has the big C and that it could be metastatic. haaaay. even if they're not relatives, they're still family. it hurts to see them in pain. and i hurt because they hurt. ang hirap.

kanina i also realized that our hospital is not 'folks-friendly'. andaming pasikot-sikot, pa-ikot-ikot. buti na lng at taga-hospital ako so alam ko kung anong gagawin ko, sino pupuntahan ko, saan ko hahanapin ung kelangan ko. e pano ung ibang mga folks. they have to deal with all the high-falutin things the nurses, the residents and the interns are throwing at them aside from the emotional upheaval that having a sick loved one brings them. dagdagan mo pa ng nakakahilong set-up ng hospital kung saan ang layo ng cashier, xray, lab, ecg at kung ano ano pa jan..... e nakakaloka nga naman tlga. idagdag mo pa na hindi ka magagalaw kung wala kang pera.... no wonder so many folks get mad at us, the interns, e litong-lito na siguro sila.

nahihilo na ko..... FD pa ko..... maka-iyak na lng muna at makatulog.....

ciao....