i lost my wallet :(

I'm sure i had it sa jeep yesterday.
I'm not sure if i had it when i entered the door ng house namin dito sa cubao. Kase from duty and status ko yesterday and i probably dozed off sa jeep.
Pero i'm about 90something percent sure i had it with me when i got home.
I used my barya going to the hospital kanina. The barya was already in the pocket of my blazer.
I didn't have a wallet when i was in the hospital kanina.
I assumed i left my wallet dito sa bahay.
When i got back... wala ang wallet ko dito sa house.

It's a small blue pouch.
It has my atm.
My philhealth card.
Laking National Bookstore Card and SM Advantage Card.
Ung visitor's pass sa condo ni Tarits.
And about 800pesos. Give or take some.

I either lost it sa jeep or dito sa house.
Waaaaaahhh..
Ayoko na mag-isip. Sabi nga ni Ninang, we hope it didn't get lost dito sa house.

:((( I need my atm.
And the philhealth card.
Alright, i also need the money pero if the person needs it more, then ok lng. Kahit ung ATM at philhealth card na lng. :(((
Advance Merry Christmas na lang sa kanya.

Waaaaaah......
Ngayon, how do i apply 'In everything give thanks'? 'In whatever circumstance, rejoice'?

Thank you Lord hindi ako naulanan kanina. :)
At thank you dahil hindi nanakaw ung cellphone ko this time. Hahaha.
And thank you because I know you saw this. At ikaw ang bahala dito.
For whatever purpose, I believe you will make this come out for the good. Like you always do.

Bakit ang hirap ma-prune?! Hahaha.

los banos, aking mahal

Last weekend, i was in manila. Fiftieth anniversary kase ng home church namin. Yun ay ang Caloocan Bible Church. It was the church where my mom and dad met. It was where they got married. It was where i was dedicated. Dun din na-ordain si Tatay. At dun din kaming tatlong magkakapatid ay na-baptize. So i wanted to be there. And by God's grace and provision, I was able to go. Magaling si Lord.

Saturday, I went straight to UPLB from the airport. Adik ako e. Adik sa esvees. Adik sa elbi. At nagkita kami ng mga esvees. Wheeeeee! *bighug*

i saw eena's happy nails. hehe. ang saya. they're shining, shimmering shplendid! And I also saw my dear dear cousin Tantan again. I met Eloi again (the first time was during the feb fair last year parang ilang seconds lang) pero it felt like i've known her for years! And of course there were Migs, and Deneb, and Karis, and Omar, and my twin sister Chara, and Philip, and Irish. (may nakalimutan ba ako?) Of course, si Kit.:)

I missed Dan (i was really expecting your matinding hirits...)
And Alvin (who promised cracking knuckles...)
Wala kayo. Ayun. Na-lost tuloy ang mga esvee boys. Haaaay nako.

I'll see more of you again next time ha. *hug*

the last week

last week na lng of duties. this is going to be the longest week of our internship lives siguro.... konti na lng and we're finally free. :)

imagine, matatapos na namin ang 365 days of duty. haaaay...

thank you Lord for strength.
thank you Lord for grace.

sa puyat. sa pagod. sa pag-iyak. sa nakakainis na mga karanasan. salamat.
sa masasayang duties. sa masisipag na groupmates. sa mababait na residents. salamat.
sa hindi magagandang experiences. sa mga olats moments. sa mga frightening situations. salamat.
sa adrenaline rush. sa boring times. sa panahon na nakakatulog kami while on duty. salamat.
sa mga stab wounds, gunshot wounds, lacerated wounds, punctured wounds at lahat ng klaseng wounds na natuto kami magtahi. salamat.
sa sakit ng katawan. sa kaba sa dibdib. sa terror na mga consultants. salamat.
sa mga na-deliver na babies na well. salamat.
sa nakaka-intindi na mga housemates and friends. salamat.
sa mga irate folks. irate PGIs. irate interns. irate patients. irate residents. irate nurses. irate everybody. salamat.
sa mga cool din naman na mga tao, lalo na ang mga cardiotechs. salamat.
salamat, Lord. salamat sa buong taon.

salamat at buhay pa ako. at wala pa akong Hepa B. at wala din akong TB na active.
:)

salamat po. salamat.

at the Social Hygiene Clinic....

...i sat down and almost wept. My heart felt for them. But i was silent.

"Are you betrothed?"
"No, only loved."
"And do you pay for love?"
"No, but i owe it everything."

I am now reading Calvin Miller's The Singer, The Song and The Finale. And we are now rotating at the City Health Office here in Iloilo. And kanina, we were posted at the Social Hygiene Clinic where we get to meet and examine these special women whom God also loves. First time ko to be within reach of one. It was a different experience.

I was reminded by those lines above when i entered the clinic. There were so many of them, these Friendship Sellers. And i had these urge to hug them and tell them that someone loves them for real. To teach them the Song of the Troubadour. To share to them the infinite love of the EarthMaker to whom i also owe everything. But i couldn't. I was silent. Lord, forgive me. I just smiled at them, tried to be kind and friendly, and did my best to smear fast and without causing pain. Hoping that at least by my doing so, i may share God's love somehow...

As a doctor, how can i share to them my faith? Share to them the hope that there is life and love that is pure and real and free? Jesus took only a few minutes with the woman at the well... Bakit ako nawalan ng sasabihin? A few minutes... I know the One who can free them from these dances that the World Hater has taught them. But i failed to sing to them the Song...

Father, do not forget them. Please bring people who can sing to them your Song so that they can be set free from their chains and have life in you.

mt. napulak (third dose)

That's us, the nine crazy junior interns at the top of Mt. Napulak's "Nipple". Mt. Napulak is shaped like a breast daw kase and there's this big rock at the peak (parang Ayer's Rock sa Australia pero a lot smaller...) na mukhang nipple nung mountain pag sa malayo. There's a steel cross at the top of this rock (pero di na namin kinunan ng picture). The view here is wonderful, sobra. You can see until the coast at kita din ang Guimaras and Negros. Then the other side of the mountain is Antique na daw.

Bumaba na kami from the nipple before sunset. Kase it would have been dangerous to go back down without lights. So we watched the sunset dun sa baba ng nipple na lng.

Night time at the peak was cold. Really cold. Ang kasama namin na asthmatic was wheezing before morning. Hahaha. Tsktsk. The winds were strong and cold. Super. Part ng kabaliwan namin ay wala kaming dalang mga sleeping bags. The winds sounded like waves crashing on the beach pag may bagyo. Of us 11 (including the guide), si Manong Morot (the guide) and Jun (the guest) and Jewel (na friend of the mountaineer, haha!) lang ang may dala ng sleeping bags. I had two sweatshirts and 3 beddings. Hiniram ni Roch ung isa kong sweater kase di sya nkadala. Grabe. Super ginaw. I kept waking every 2 hours, wishing for morning. It was one of the longest nights in my life. Di ko na ma-feel halos ung paa ko sa lamig. Haha. But we survived until morning naman.

Morning was foggy. And wet. We were IN the clouds. :) Parang benguet yung lamig. Like the time na nag-EchoCamp kami sa Benguet na binagyo kami. Waaaaah... Wet and cold. We went down at about 8am... basa pa yung mga cogon grass at matalim sila. We skidded and slid part of the way down the slope lalo na dun sa mga cogon parts. Scary. Buti na lng mejo may clouds below us kase we couldn't see the drop. Haaay. My knees were buckling before we got to ground zero. It took us 4 hours to get from the peak to the coconuts waiting for us sa town. :)