some things i learned about myself during internship

> i hate not being able to take a bath the next morning after being on duty for 24 hours. It's the worst part of being an FD.
> when i feel like i can't take anymore... feeling ko lang pala yon. dahil i still have more to give pala.
> i enjoy suturing. people. :) but i do not like surgery.
> i hate drunks. vehemently. and with all my being. they're the worst patients you can have.
> i find it hard to be sorry for intoxicated patients. i need a double measure of grace when dealing with them.
> i may not like kids, but i can oftentimes get them to allow me to examine them.
> the sound of a child crying sets my teeth on edge. i probably will not be a pediatrician.
> i do not like dealing with folks of pedia patients. i probably will not be a pediatrician.
> i am a night person. truly.
> 37 hours without sleep is the most i can go and still be functional. and i can manage again after 2-4 hours of sleep.
> i can go to sleep in under 5 minutes. talent ito.
> i can manage to sleep in whatever position. talent din ito.
> i can live on adrenaline for only so long.
> i'd rather sleep than eat. and i'd rather starve than prepare my own food. but when called upon, i can make a garden salad or pasta or cook pancit canton. i just prefer not to.
> i do not enjoy performing an internal examination. i most probably won't be an obstetrician-gynecologist either.
> i snap at people when i'm tired.
> masungit talaga ako.
> i can't study when i'm bangag.
> i enjoyed myself this year. but i'd rather not go through this again.
> i really want to be a doctor.
> i still want to be a dentist din. still. :)
> i can learn when i set my mind and heart on it.
> i admire the residents who teach. i admire the residents who are able to teach without making an effort of it more. i admire the residents who teach with their lives most.
> i easily forget.
> i have a really bad memory.
> i need to make more effort to learn and understand.
> people who smoke and drink had their diseases coming to them for a long time. i find it hard to empathize or sympathize with them.
> i still couldn't care less what my hair looks like when i'm on duty.
> when i'm tired and toxic, beware of me.
> i need occasional "break-down moments" to keep my sanity.
> crying helps me get a handle on things.
> laughter can also help me get a handle on things.
> i can go almost 24 hours NPO. hahaha!
> i'd rather care than not be affected.
> i need more grace.
> i need to extend more grace to others.
> friends are important to me.
> what others think matters more to me than i thought. can't decide if it's a good thing or a bad thing.
> i'd take blood anytime over feces and vomit and pus.
> i don't like pedia in general. but sometimes there are exceptions. but i still probably won't go into pediatrics.
> practice really does help.
> when i'm stressed, i shut down.