decision-making time

A few hours ago, i was sitting once again in one of the seats in Roxas Hall along with my batchmates. We were there, excused from duty at the hospital, to be "wooed" or informed by several representatives from different hospitals (who were graduates of West din) here in Iloilo and Bacolod regarding their Post-Graduate Internship programs. We were also given application forms to fill in and a list of all the possible hospitals we could apply in. Accompanying these documents is a small slip of paper containing our GWA for the past 3 years and our class rank. *gulp*

The Lord has a very skewed sense of humor. He's really amazing! Hahaha. :)

Anyway, i left the room with only one thing sure.... well at least about 95% sure... and that is that I'll be applying for the DOH Integration program at East Avenue Medical Center, National Kidney Institute, the Heart Center and Children's Hospital. So that's my first choice as of press time today. The next 95% decided thing is that i won't apply at PGH since i really don't think i'll survive Taft Avenue or the workload at PGH. E dito pa nga lng sa West e naiiyak nako sa pagod ko, don pa! Ayoko na! The next two choices for a hospital are... well.... i guess i might call them wild cards. I don't know yet san ako mag-aapply. I might put down Baguio General Hospital just to put down something else for my last hospital of choice. I don't know..... Aaaaarghhh... All i know is that next year, I want to be in Luzon again. Even for just next year na lng ulit....

So anyway, here i am, sweating over decisions i have to make. Again.

I called my parents of course. Yesterday. I asked them about where i could go for PGI-ship. And as expected, they will make me decide for my own where to apply. Like they did when i was choosing a course in College. And choosing to go into Medicine and deciding on a school to go to. I should have known they won't tell me what to do. Only that I go where the Lord wants me to be.

And that's the crux. I don't know for sure yet where that is. And I have two days to listen for the answer. Please pray with me that i be sensitive to hear where God's call is. And that i would be faster still to obey.

For His ways are higher than my ways. And His thoughts are higher than my thoughts. Blessed be the Name of the Lord. Amen.